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Bella Hadid On ‘Debilitating’ Depression Episodes And Dealing With It Daily
It’s not easy, but 2022 was better than the previous years.
Victoria’s Secret model Bella Hadid has always been open about her depression and life with Lyme disease. The 25-year-old, whose real name is Isabella Khair Hadid talked about her “debilitating” episodes with a series of sad selfies of herself, eyes red from crying.
Speaking about her post from back in November, she told WSJ, “That post made me less lonely because I had a lot of people that have reached out saying, ‘I feel that way too.'”
The model added that “it was to make sure that anybody that was feeling that way knew it was okay to feel that way…Even though on Instagram things look so beautiful, at the end of the day, we are all cut from the same cloth.”
“I felt like it was just good for me to be able to speak my truth, and at some point, I wasn’t able to post nice pretty pictures anymore. I was over it.”
“I don’t know if that’s not what people want on Instagram, and that’s fine. I don’t have to be on Instagram forever. I feel like real is the new real, and that’s what’s important to me,” the Kin Euphorics co-founder emphasized.
She revealed that many of these are from the selfies she sent her mom Yolanda for the past three years. She also sends them to her doctors whenever she’s experiencing “excruciating and debilitating mental and physical pain.”
But she also has “good days.”
“Today is a good day. My brain fog is feeling better; I don’t feel depressed. I don’t have as much anxiety as I usually do.”
“But tomorrow, I could wake up and [be] the complete opposite. That’s why I get so overwhelmed.”
Bella told InStyle that she once took “30 pills” with “two shots a day in the keester,” self-administered when she was struggling with Lyme Disease. But she told WSJ’s IMG Model, “I realize now that my body is a temple.”
“And the routine that we have in the morning, especially Monday mornings, is…almost the most important thing because if you don’t start your week on a good note, it’s not going to be good for you.”
She also dove in on how Julia Cameron’s “The Artist’s Way” is her favorite book. She also writes her journal and also meditates for gratitude every morning.
She’s also set her 2022 New Year’s resolution to better focus on her mental health. She’s been attending a private class for Pilates in West Hollywood with Liana Levi, who only takes referral-only clients and charge up to $500 per class.
“I love Pilates,” said the model. “Because I’m just swinging and jumping on things. I just want to have fun, and I don’t want it to feel super heavy.”
“The gym for me is also about the social aspect, about being around energy and people…What I love to do is take long walks on the Hudson. I love boxing. I love rowing. I like anything that seems like an activity,” she continued talking about the things she enjoyed doing lately.
The anxiety she gets when she has to find the right clothes for a day out was why she started styling herself.
She talks about her fear of paparazzi, “In the last year, it was really important for me to learn that even if people talk about my style or if they like it or if they don’t, it doesn’t matter, because it’s my style.”
“When I leave the house in the morning, what I think about is: ‘Does this make me happy? Do I feel good in this, and do I feel comfortable?'”
She’s currently focusing on promoting Victoria’s Secret ‘Feel The Love’ campaign that will launch on Valentine’s Day.
